The Last Week

When you’re little, there are things you never think you’ll ever reach (and I’m not talking about the cookie jar up on the counter). You never think you’ll ever be as old as the big sixth graders. Becoming one of the high school show choir kids that sing around town every Christmas? Impossible. Thoughts of driving, of dating, of getting old enough to move out and not be with Mom & Dad anymore, all unbelievable. Incomprehensible.

Then suddenly you’re there. You realize that sixth graders aren’t really that big. Show Choir isn’t as wonderful as you dreamed it would be. You drive (in fact you love it), you definitely date, and you moved out. And your freshman year of college, which seemed so far away even in high school, has already flown by and is nearing its end. Only three more days until it’s time to pack up and leave again.

Isn’t it crazy how fast time goes by?

This first year of college has changed me. It really has. I’ll be honest, I didn’t really want to go, but gosh, it’s helped me see everything in a different and new light. Looking back I laugh at the Old Abbey that was dreading coming to Ephraim. Little did she know that she was about to have the best ride of her life thus far. She wasn’t able to comprehend that she would lose so much but gain so much more, and what she would gain would be better than what she had before moving out of her familiar home.

Not all, but some friendships from home have crashed & burned (Taylor calls it the High School Friend Fall-Out). I’ve learned that honesty is key for any happy relationship, that girlfriends/boyfriends totally kill any meaning of the term “best friends”, that forgiveness helps lighten loads, that our God above loves us and is by our sides no matter what, that my family are my greatest friends and confidants. Even friendships from here in Ephraim haven’t turned out. That has taught me that God puts people in our lives to teach us lessons and sometimes, they aren’t meant to stay, and that’s okay, because there are better things ahead. Much better.

[I can’t write this and not mention that my family got me through so much throughout these past few months, even from miles away. Our #MorrisonFam group chat is something I am so grateful for. My family is my everything, and always will be.]

This last semester was the pinnacle of my time here at Snow. My sister became my greatest friend, and with that, her friends became mine as well. Never before in my life have I felt such genuine love from so many people all at once that weren’t family. These friends I have here aren’t my friends only because I have something to offer. These friends I have don’t use me, don’t ask favors and never return them. These friends love to be with me and treat me right. I’ve never been more blessed and more happy.

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It’s been a bumpy ride, but these people have made it totally worth it. We had the best weekends together, so much fun in the library at night “studying”, so many laughs. I’m seriously so proud to call each and every one of these kids my best friends. I am forever grateful for the experience at Snow College and the people I am able to end it with this year.

It’s a little bittersweet, thinking that after this week, we will all go our separate ways for the summer (or longer). We’ll go from seeing each other every single day to maybe two or three times during the next three months, if we’re lucky. Never ever ever in my life did I ever think that I would love college this much and actually be afraid to leave it. I’m going to miss Ephraim a lot…

I’m thankful for Kels, who took me under her wing and was my friend and my sister. I’m thankful for Elysa, for the times she laid in bed with me while I cried, and for everything else. I’m thankful for Aneisa, my bestie and favorite person to laugh with. I’m thankful for Madeline, who helped me survive my music classes with an almost-positive attitude. ;) I’m thankful for Josh, for his strength and example and all that he has taught me about love and joy. I’m thankful for Geoff, who helped me learn how to say no (haha). I’m thankful for Leedan, the most thoughtful human being to ever walk this earth. I’m thankful for Tyler and his laugh. I’m thankful for Kyle’s hugs and his constant friendship. I’m thankful for Michael because he thinks I’m really funny. I’m thankful that I got to have Kenzie as my roommate for a semester and see her off as she went to France for her mission. I’m thankful for the cuties that have called me every now and then to tell me about their lives. I’m thankful for all of these people and so many more, I can’t even count all the people here in Ephraim that have made me smile.

Life is good.

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I’ll never forget what I could never imagine as a little girl: my first year at Snow College.

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Reflection Letter on Rhetoric Rationale

Once again, addressed specifically to Lauren Matthews:

This letter entails my opinion of my success in two of my essays.

The first, “Stars & Stripes, Butterflies & Fireworks: A Story Of Love Untold”, is a descriptive narrative and true story from my own life. My purpose in writing is to tell a story in a descriptive kind of way, and, well, I believe I did just that. My audience is for anyone and everyone that happened to come across this paper, my purpose for them to enjoy my writing—I think I survived that qualification as well.

In your own comments to me, you wrote: “Lovely, clear sentences. You are really playing around with voice and I really appreciate it.” Voice is something I worked on a lot in this paper. It being a true story, I really wanted my reader to go away feeling like they knew me, like my thoughts connected with them, like any other paper written by Abbey Morrison would be recognizable, because “that’s how she writes”. Overall my tone is reflective and almost whimsical I would say—any dream unlived but most desired should sound like a repetitive thought whispered in your mind almost like a secret, in my opinion. And that’s how I wrote “Stars & Stripes, Butterflies & Fireworks: A Story Of Love Untold”.

The second paper I choose to discuss is my issue paper, “High School and College: A Letter To My Adolescent Friends Titled ‘How Dare You Think You’re Life Is Hard’”. It is apparent that my audience is to high school students. My purpose in writing was to let them know what I thought of their struggles verses mine. I think my argument is effective because I’m honestly afraid to show this essay to any high school friend that I have for fear that they will get super offended. But if they did read it, I think it would convince them that their high school issues are ludicrous and miniscule in comparison to a college student’s.

Again, I used my voice loudly throughout this piece. A ten-page paper couldn’t be exciting if I wrote with no emotion, so writing about something that actually bugged me made it easier to get my point across and make actual arguments that I had a passion for. I used metaphors to add creativity, I used personal insights for credibility, and I inserted lots of relatable quotations, including one of my own from a blog post of mine. This paper was one of my favorites to write because I was able to write and hold nothing back—my opinion was the only one that mattered in this paper and I was able to express everything I wanted to without interruption: that is the beauty of writing. No one can stop you.

These two papers were the two I was most invested in. Writing for myself is a lot easier than writing for any other cause.

Reflection Letter on Writing Process

To all English & writing teachers in general, but more specifically, Lauren Matthews:

In any writing class, for me it’s always about patience. I recall a year ago when I was in a creative writing class, my teacher never explained anything, but let us go loose on whatever the syllabus said we had to do. See, I already knew how to write. Thinking I’d get more help on the subject though, I signed up for that class, only to receive nothing and use what I already knew to get the A.

So am I a bad writer for never having a good teacher?

College has a funny way of twisting your view and opinion of yourself. You come in thinking you’re great at something, only to learn you’re actually quite mediocre compared to the rest of the world. And so it was with my writing skills this semester at Snow College.

I came in thinking I knew a lot, and honestly I got bored because in every writing class I’ve taken—all the rules of grammar, of MLA, of using voice, of being creative—are so redundant. But to my surprise, I was humbled: I learned something this time around. I’ve learned that not everybody can understand my thought process, that I actually have confusing paragraphs, and, despite how organized I am outside of the classroom, my papers sometimes suggest otherwise. These are things I can continue to work on as I continue to write, because there’s always room for improvement.

Throughout this writing class, English 2010, I have written a rhetorical analysis towards Amy Chua and her ineffective argument that Chinese parenting is superior; a descriptive narrative on the best day to be had filled with stars & stripes, food and fireworks and car rides; a research paper about the injustice of slavery and the poor ignorance of third world girls that don’t know any better; and lastly, an issue paper (in my previous blog post) about high school and college and which one inevitably brings more genuine tears.

(I get that that was a huge and long sentence, but I used semi-colons, so I should be good, yeah? I like long sentences.)

I’ve learned this year that I am an okay writer. In all honesty, my sixteen-year-old brother is probably better than I am. But contrary to what this course syllabus has taught about the strict rules of writing, I will still enjoy writing most with my voice and my sass in all its glory; this class hasn’t changed me, but I can see improvement.

Thank you, Captain.

High School and College: A Letter to My Adolescent Friends Titled “How Dare You Think Your Life is Hard”

My dear high school friends:

How is it over in that small, single building of yours? You wake up every morning, go to roughly four classes a day, see all of your friends in the hallway or in English or math, go to lunch and fill your grumbling stomachs, then either go home to hang out with friends or go to work to earn money as soon as the last bell rings. Hardly a bad life now, is it? You high schooler’s have such simple lives—you don’t realize how lucky you’ve got it. You think high school is hard? Wait till you’ve been to college.

Here in college I pull myself out of bed, get myself ready, and sometimes have time for breakfast. I then go to 5-7 classes, depending on the day, from 8:30am to 5:30 or 7:30pm, and that’s just class time, not even time for me to do homework. In the evenings I spend all my time in the library, doing homework and reading assignments, trying to balance what assignments I should get done first, because in college, timing is everything. I don’t have a lunch break, unless I’m lucky enough to find time to run home and make myself a sandwich, if I haven’t run out of bread yet. There is literally no time for “hanging out” during the week—to do so would be ludicrous and, frankly, a waste of time. Sure, being in school for six hours a day isn’t that great, but at least you have time to yourself for the rest of the day. In college, that doesn’t exist. Not if you’re like me.

Now, there are college students that make their schooling a joke. With three to five classes total, they come to think they have all the time in the world; that most definitely leads to poor time management, and soon enough they’re not doing too hot. On the other hand, there are college students (like my sister, for example) who always attend their classes, then spend the rest of their day studying in the library either by themselves or in study groups. These are students you can tell are dedicated to their work and want to be here in college. They have the right motivation and a love of learning. Although it means constant work, I bet they’d tell you that no matter how difficult it may be, it’s worth it.

In my limited experience, college has taught me more about life than high school ever did. Perhaps that is because I’m away from home, and when that happens, life lessons come faster than your head cheerleader can get a new boyfriend. In college, everything comes at a fast pace—due dates, tests, the entire curriculum in general, friendships, relationships, food—and leaves at an even faster pace in many cases. College is definitely a wake up call to evaluate what your priorities are and what they should be. It’s a realization that good things have to be earned and are not simply given out on a silver platter. College is a time of self-discovery, a glorious time where it doesn’t matter what people think, because honestly, everyone is so focused on their own lives to judge you anyway.

High school is hard. I’ve been there, I know. If your appearance isn’t up to par then the “cool” kids will look down on you. If you aren’t funny enough, no one will want your company, unless you’re an extremely attractive human being. If you don’t have anything to give, people and so-called friends will usually push you aside for someone better and more convenient. If you go a day without make-up, everyone thinks you’re having boy problems (which embarrassingly enough, is probably true, that or you just didn’t wake up in time to get ready—also embarrassing). If you follow the rules, you’re considered a goody-two-shoes. If you don’t have a social life, you don’t have a life at all. If you don’t have clever captions on your Instagram posts, why are you even posting anything? If you’re a student body officer, that jacket is your trophy and the whole basis of your self-worth and life purpose revolves around just that; everyone without a jacket is beneath you and should feel privileged that you give them any time of day. If you don’t play sports or have friends that play sports, you aren’t popular. If you are in drama, no one knows the reality of your hard work and devotion because no one seems to care about drama besides whoever is in drama. Now, I know I’m totally stereotyping, but bruh, high school is the supreme factory for creating stereotypes. You do this every day, my high school students. You worry about falling into stereotypes and categories that fellow classmates might put you in.

So what do you do?

You pretend. You try to fit in. Soon enough, you don’t know who you are. Wonder why people say college is for self-discovery? You gotta find yourself under that high school mask. In an essay by Michael Davidson, he wrote about the idea of a “social mask” and living in stereotypes:

“Some people will only accept you if you act in a particular way. But everyone has different expectations and desires of how other people should behave, so by pleasing any one person you are neglecting others… It takes a lot of energy to pretend to be someone you’re not. Yes, the social mask comes ‘automatically’. But it’s tiring to keep up your persona. You can’t relax when you need to constantly second-guess your thoughts and actions. Over time, this really takes its toll on you… The purpose of your social mask is to please other people. The problem is that it helps you please the wrong people.” (Davidson)

Basing yourself on the stereotypes won’t help you. You poor high school kids think that fitting in is the most important thing in this life—fitting in and being accepted.

Your priorities are a far cry from what mine are, due to experiences with being out of high school. Living in college forces you to grow up and look at life a little differently. After you graduate, you won’t have that comfortable pillow that is your friend group to lean back on. You and your friends will go your separate ways, and you’ll be surprised with how distant you will become with some of the people you were so sure would be your friends throughout your entire life. You might even look back and wonder why you even considered them to be friends.

This next excerpt from an article online describes almost perfectly what I think of when I reflect on myself and my acquaintances in high school:

“One of the priorities of teenagers nowadays is the psychological priority. This priority includes fame, love, and ego. Teenagers always wanted to become popular because they think that there is a need to be. Youths are attention-seekers and they always wanted to be admired by others. They show off their talents and skills in order for them to be appreciated. Due to the advancement of the technology, teens use social networking sites to mingle with their friends and colleagues. They display their talents on the Internet sites for them to be noticed by others, to express themselves and to become famous. In their young age, they get easily attached because of love. Majority of the teenagers today early get into relationships. They fall in love easily when someone shows them extra care and love. Ego sometimes causes us to follow the wrong path.” (Phenrosales)

Have you forgotten there are people that truly care for you? Don’t you realize that you are someone’s priority? Not in a romantic sense—it’s not a temporal thing—but you’re a priority in the sense that they would do anything for you. Whoever you call family, ever notice how they’re there the instant you let them be? A lot of high school students take their families for granted. Once you’re in the real world, you learn really quickly who’s really there for you and will be a permanent part of your life. In high school it’s all about your image—about your face, your hair, your clothes, the people you associate yourself with—and then suddenly you’re in college and none of that matters.

Priorities can be set selfishly. In high school during my senior year, I started to come out of my All-About-Me Coma, something that happens to teenagers when their self-image is what matters above all other things. I was trying to comprehend how high school relationships work—they seemed so dispensable and so quickly discarded if need be. In an earlier blog post I wrote during high school, I compared the two variables of a relationship: giving and taking. How much do we give and how much do we take? Specifically in high school, what must the balance be in high school relationships if they so easily fall apart?

“[I] decided the percentage is higher in the ‘take’ category. All [high school relationships are] is taking. That boy doesn’t hold that girl’s hand just cause he wants to make her feel loved and special… the main reason is cause it feels good and he likes it. It makes him feel good. High school kids don’t give hugs, they take hugs. It’s a lot about… instant gratification… Do these high school couples really care about each other or do they just care about the feelings they get from hugging, holding hands, kissing, etc.? If it’s all taking for pleasure, for satisfaction, if that boy would be perfectly fine holding hands or hugging or kissing anyone else, then it must be all about taking.” (Morrison)

This world isn’t just yours to rule. There is a responsibility you must take with the people here in it. Life isn’t just about having fun, or about instant gratification; it’s about learning and being the best human being you can be. Is that taught at all in high school? Maybe a little in the learning department, but even there it’s scarce nowadays.

It’s really easy to graduate high school. In fact, it’s more difficult to not graduate. The real struggle is once you get to college and you actually have to work hard to get a good grade. In college, professors expect so much more of you—you actually have to do the reading in order to get by, you should take notes during class, and the library literally becomes your home away from home—just to receive an acceptable grade. You pay for everything yourself—from tuition to books to apartments to food to other living essentials—to even be there to have the opportunity to go to school.

My mom always says, “There isn’t enough time in a day!” to which I always would roll my eyes. Little did I know that this phrase would become far more applicable in my own life. For example, here I am, writing this essay on why high school isn’t as hard as college. The clock reads 11:16pm, which surprises me because I got to the library at 7:30pm. All I’ve been working on is this paper and I still have physics homework, a paper to write for my beginning conducting class, theory homework, song practice for my voice lessons, music to memorize for my choir concert next week, a test in the morning I haven’t yet had time to study for because my professor didn’t tell us about it till three hours ago, and those are all obligations, not even things I want to do. It’s impossible to accomplish everything in one day—don’t believe me, come try it out yourself. It’s hard to strike a balance between wants and needs. Stress is ever constant because homework is never done, sleep is never long enough, and I feel guilty for any social excursion I find myself taking part in because I know I still have loads to do.

Everything moves so quickly, in fact, that you don’t have time to be something you’re not. Friends come fast, and people decide right away if you’re worth their time or not. If you aren’t yourself, I doubt your friendship will last long. If you want anything to last beyond college, you’ll need to work hard and be genuine. That statement doesn’t apply to friendship, but the whole scheme of what you do while at school—work, classes, grades, relationships, and so on. You’ve got to pace yourself and learn what you want to make time for.

There isn’t enough time in a day. Like I said, everything in college moves at a fast pace. In college, there are lengthy assignments due every other day for multiple classes. Semesters are shorter and class times are shorter than those in high school, and yet more material is covered in college classes. If you don’t study, you will not do well, I guarantee. There is no free time in class to do assignments, because college really does believe in homework.

My dear high school friends, you’re going to look back a year or two from now, laugh at your pathetic problems, and wonder why anything so small once stressed you out. In high school your struggles include cramming for due dates, having multiple assignments at once, staying up late to finish last minute projects, getting your heart broken, not being cool enough, not fitting in, not having enough money to go out, getting anything less than an A. It all seems hard now, but just wait.

In college, there will be days where you think you’ve got everything under control until you suddenly have six new assignments due all within the next week. You’re gonna regret taking a break from homework and not getting your science lab finished a day early when something more urgent comes up the next day. Wait for the day when you figure out that it’s actually impossible to finish everything you have to do in one day; you’ve been up since seven and it’s near midnight and you’re still in the library. You might miss your sweetheart for a while, but such a flimsy relationship wasn’t meant to last anyway. Just wait until that one shining moment when you’ll learn how much a heart can really feel, but then you must try to walk away when they change their mind. Being cool and fitting in won’t matter, because in college, you are literally “too busy to care what people think” (Hoyt). Wait until you don’t have enough money to buy even just the essentials, and have to pick and choose what you actually need. Getting anything close to an A is a good call and proves you worked hard, but an actual A? Now that’s dedication and something to be extremely proud of. Wait until your future is resting in your hands and you are fully responsible for the outcome. It all seems hard now, but you just wait.

The popular and talented singer, Taylor Swift, wrote one of her songs about her high school experience. This song is one that I relate to well. One thing I didn’t realize until just recently listening to it was her last chorus. Swift used it to sing from an adult’s point of view, talking to the girl who is beginning her own journey into high school. She says in her song “Fifteen”:

“’Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you/you’re gonna believe them/And when you’re fifteen, don’t forget to look before you fall/I’ve found time can heal most anything/And you might just find who you’re supposed to be/I didn’t know who I was supposed to be at fifteen” (Swift)

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Me, on the left, at my high school graduation, May 2015

Not to rain on your parade, but life gets a lot harder after high school. You think you’re on top right now and that you’ve got a lot figured out. Really you’re still at ground zero. Remember this when you’re in college. You’ll look back at all of your friends and acquaintances still in high school and cringe when they tell you their struggles, because really it’s not as bad in comparison to your workload and stress level. College is much harder than high school. Don’t wanna take my word for it? Try it yourself.

 

Update (8 Photos Worth) #4

I’M BACK. haha

1. Every Sunday we have what Weston calls Jesus Night… We make waffles or pancakes and watch a church movie! It’s a fun tradition. (Buuuut in this specific picture I was sick and felt so awful. But Kels stayed with me while everyone went to the fireside and we had the best talk, something I really, really needed. I love Kelsie)

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2. Near the beginning of the semester, we went sledding and it was fun but then I ripped my NEW coat… and my pants… and my back. Who knew sledding could be so dangerous? I really like these people though. That day was really fun, despite we being super bitter about my ripped clothing and body…… haha (I have a scar. Cool, right?)

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3. If you wanna discuss Star Wars, relationships, funny stories, music, or basically anything else you can think of, Geoff is your guy. This picture was from our date to the Girls Choice Institute Dance. For our pre-dance part of the date, the girls made a “homemade photobooth”. It was my idea (not to brag hehe) and I was so so proud and happy that everyone loved it so much! It really was a blast!

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4. If you don’t have choir friends, what’s the point in choir? Madeline & Faith here are super cute and fabulous. Madeline is one of my best friends at Snow College and I’m so grateful that I see her every day!

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5. If you didn’t know… this is Aneisa. This picture is silly, but so are we. She is my favorite person to talk to, my favorite person to laugh with, my favorite person to be with. Basically she’s my number 1. And I am so grateful that I have her in my life! Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I hadn’t chosen Snow, but then I stop thinking cause if I hadn’t come here I wouldn’t have met my best friend.

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6. Another great thing about Snow College is my sister Kelsie. WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT HER. I don’t know. She is such an amazing example to me, and she loves me!! She is such a good friend to me and for that I will be forever indebted to her. She is the greatest sister on this whole planet. So caring and kind. (This picture was from when we went shopping for our Girls Choice Date. So much stuff!)

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7. So……. I have never been SO excited about Valentines Day or SO happy about getting mail. This smile is real life genuine because in that moment I couldn’t believe that I’d gotten the CUTEST VALENTINE EVER. :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

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8. I got to go home FINALLY! It was a long time not seeing my family, almost two months…. Connor got his Eagle! And I am so proud of him! That weekend was so so so so good. I love Brother. (also love temple trips with Jill and facing fears and family dinner and visiting Josh and hugs and good talks and Nate and my parents)

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These are the fun moments. I don’t have more pictures because I’m ALWAYS IN CLASS OR IN THE LIBRARY. College is hard. But the good times make it worth it.

-Abbs

 

November 2015

Day 1. I’m thankful that I’m home this weekend. I’m thankful for my house. I’m thankful that Jill tells me things and likes to hang out with me. I’m thankful that I was able to see Connor’s play. I’m thankful for the cute girls that came up to me on Friday and told me how much the cast loves my brother. I’m thankful for Aneisa and her super chill attitude about everything. I’m thankful for the Johansens and the love they show to me whenever I see them. I’m thankful for Roxberry. I’m thankful for my momma and staying up till 2 with her just chatting. I’m thankful for Connor’s hugs. I’m thankful for Aaron and that we got to spend Halloween together. I’m thankful for his constant friendship and that he confides in me. I’m thankful for Grace’s laugh. I’m thankful for my Dad’s testimony. I’m thankful that Bailee’s home this weekend too. I’m thankful for the Manziones. I’m thankful for snapchats from Josh. I’m thankful that my mom is my best friend. I’m thankful that goodbyes to my family are only temporary. I’m thankful for the old Taylor Swift songs. I’m thankful for drives all by myself. I’m thankful for my cute sister Kelsie.november 1st

Day 2. I’m thankful for the fuzzy blanket Heidi gave me for graduation. I’m thankful that I’m an organized person. I’m thankful for Elysa’s friendship. I’m thankful for pencil erasers. I’m thankful for practice rooms where I can jam to Happy With You as loud as I want. I’m thankful for green salad and croutons. I’m thankful for alone time. I’m thankful for Kenzie’s example in preparing for a mission. I’m thankful that Aaron will text me just to tell me the most random things. I’m thankful that my roommates Kenzie & Aneisa have become some of my best friends. I’m thankful for popcorn. I’m thankful for Kelsie because I can tell her everything and it’s awesome. I’m thankful for walks with Aneisa and being able to get a lot off my chest. I’m thankful that I’ll be in bed before midnight tonight.

Day 3. I’m thankful for mornings when I get up early to study for Institute. I’m thankful for jam & toast. I’m thankful for the Doctrine & Covenants and the modern revelation we continue to receive today. I’m thankful that the mission age was lowered. I’m thankful for my Institute teacher Brother Bingham. I’m thankful for Harry Potter. I’m thankful for the piano and how therapeutic it is. I’m thankful for bad weather cause without it we couldn’t appreciate the good days. I’m thankful for priesthood leaders. I’m thankful for my dad. I’m thankful for Fin. I’m thankful when Josh texts me. I’m thankful for my bed.

Day 4. I’m thankful for Fin and that he’s choosing to serve a mission (MTC today!). I’m thankful for toast & hot chocolate. I’m thankful for Elder Holland and the power of his talks. I’m thankful that I know that there are always better times ahead. I’m thankful for hoodies and blankets cause it’s freeeezing. I’m thankful for Josh. I’m thankful that Nate asked how my day was going. I’m thankful for cute movies that make you think of cute things. I’m thankful that Kels came over. I’m thankful for Kenzie’s laugh.

Day 5. I’m thankful for early mornings. I’m thankful for my institute journal. I’m thankful that I surprise myself in art class. I’m thankful for my institute class. I’m thankful when I don’t have to go to sight singing. I’m thankful for cooking with Elysa. I’m thankful that I have my own laptop. I’m thankful when Kenz comes into my room just to chat. I’m thankful that my piano class is really easy for the most part. I’m thankful that my roommates call me Abbs. I’m thankful that I have my cute teddy bear (his name is B) to hug whenever I’m sad. I’m thankful for my roommates and that we can totally be ourselves around each other.

Day 6. I’m thankful for Elder Bednar. I’m thankful for toast & jam. I’m thankful that I remember the dreams I have at night. I’m thankful for heaters in cars. I’m thankful that I’m taking voice lessons this semester. I’m thankful for Dr. Huff and the sweet compliment he gave me this morning. I’m thankful for my voice teacher and the faith she has in me. I’m thankful for Mary because she is so genuine and kind. I’m thankful that it’s possible for me to repent and change. I’m thankful for practice rooms and happening to see people there. I’m thankful for nice boys. I’m thankful for Madeline and our similar sarcasm. I’m thankful that Elysa & Kenz came to my concert tonight. I’m thankful that Kels is so supportive of me and so cute. I’m thankful for girls nights. I’m thankful for hot showers. I’m thankful for books.nov6Day 7. I’m thankful I got to watch the sun rise today. I’m thankful for driving. I’m thankful that I decided to stop in Stansbury and talk with Heidi this morning. I’m thankful for my home, which is wherever my family is. I’m SO thankful for them. I’m thankful for my dad’s breakfasts. I’m thankful for chats with my mom & grandma while we do dishes. I’m thankful that my car broke down in Stansbury rather than on my way home from Ephraim. I’m thankful that Millie came to Tooele today. I’m thankful I got to go to Connor’s play again. I’m thankful that I have such a talented brother. I’m thankful that my parents took me grocery shopping. I’m thankful for Thai House. I’m thankful for voice messages from Josh. I’m thankful for the cute Cinderella movie that shows there still is good media in this world! I’m thankful for Jill and her cute personality. I’m thankful that she & I can have fun together. I’m thankful for Oreos. I’m thankful for sleepy eyes. I’m thankful for cold water.nov7Day 8. I’m thankful I’m in Tooele today. I’m thankful for the Overlake 4th Ward. I’m thankful for silly Lucie and drawing with her during sacrament meeting. I’m thankful for Connor and our perfect friendship. I’m thankful for my house. I’m thankful for my mom’s advice. I’m thankful that my family always eats meals together. I’m thankful for Grandma Harrop. I’m thankful for naps, even if they’re really short. I’m thankful for my mom, always always. I’m thankful for printers and computers. I’m thankful for Joseph Smith and what he has done for this world and the Church. I’m thankful that Randy came over to visit. I’m thankful that I trust my family with everything. I’m thankful for hugs. I’m thankful for my sweet sweet brother. I’m thankful for drives at night. I’m thankful for my cute roommates Kenz & Aneisa. nov8

Day 9. I’m thankful for my cute cousin Millie–happy 8th birthday! I’m thankful that I have two free hours in the morning on Mondays. I’m thankful that I get Elder Johansen’s emails. I’m thankful for his progress. I’m thankful for President Nelson’s talks. I’m thankful for little victories, like getting 20/20 on my homework assignment. I’m thankful for down time. I’m thankful for FaceTime (on Snapchat) with Nate. I’m thankful when my roommates & I eat dinner together. I’m thankful for phone calls with Brother. I’m thankful for my room. I’m thankful for music. I’m thankful that Aaron sent me a snap of Con singing his solo tonight.

Day 10. I’m thankful that I went to bed early last night. I’m thankful for the talks we are assigned to read for institute. I’m thankful that art got out early today. I’m thankful for Cameron’s P-Day. I love getting emails from him every week! I’m thankful for Brother Bingham. I’m thankful for Heidi’s thoughtfulness and the obvious love she has for her kids. I’m thankful for Brother Lewis and the time he took to get to know me when I was in high school. I’m thankful that Skylar sat by me in institute today! I’m thankful for phone calls with my momma. I’m thankful for snow, because it’s so pretty when it falls. I’m thankful for Women’s Choir. Im thankful that Randy answered the phone. I’m thankful for Aneisa & Elysa & Kenz. I’m thankful for curling irons. I’m thankful for super chill evenings at our apartment. Im thankful for Kenzie’s laugh. I’m thankful for Savannah and our talks. I’m thankful for deep talks with Aneisa. nov10

Day 11. I’m thankful that I like to write. I’m thankful for Elysa and that she tells me stuff. I’m thankful for sweaters. I’m thankful for The Golden Trio. I’m thankful for food. I’m thankful that I got to go to Colorado last month to see Josh. I’m thankful when I have time to clean my room. I’m thankful for cool kids that I went to high school with that go to Snow now. I’m thankful for the soup my mom sent to Ephraim with me. I’m thankful for Grace and the silly things we did when we were younger. I’m thankful for the Restoration. I’m thankful for snapchats from Nate. I’m thankful that Kelsie came over tonight and that we called Mom & Dad.

Day 12. I’m thankful for blankets. I’m thankful for hot water. I’m thankful for the talk Skylar told me to read! I’m thankful for Kenz. I’m thankful for cold weather, sometimes. I’m thankful for my art class, sometimes. I’m thankful that I had institute today. I’m thankful I was able to bear good news to my mom & grandma (wink-wink). I’m thankful for Cody. I’m thankful for my dad’s cooking. I’m thankful for Isabelle and that talk we had last time I saw her. I’m thankful for the piano. I’m thankful for Madeline. I’m thankful for my choir teacher. I’m thankful that Elysa made us all dinner. I’m thankful for Savannah & Connor’s friendship. I’m thankful for Kelsie’s apartment. I’m thankful for nights when Elysa & I stay up talking.

Day 13. I’m thankful for Bailee. I’m thankful that Elysa & I have a couple classes together. I’m thankful for my voice teacher, Susan Huff. I’m thankful that phones exist so I can text my parents whenever I want to. I’m thankful that Kels told me her choir was singing at Friday Forum so that I could go see her. I’m thankful for my music theory class. I’m thankful for music. I’m thankful for Kenzie. I’m thankful that I hung out with Kels all afternoon. I’m thankful for funny stories! I’m thankful for pizza. I’m thankful for returned missionary’s stories. I’m thankful for Kelsie & Weston cause they’re hilarious together. I’m thankful for cheesecake. I’m thankful for bathrooms. I’m thankful that the heater was fixed today in our apartment! I’m thankful for the cutest videos I got from Josh that made my whole night.

Day 14. I’m thankful for days when I get to sleep in as long as I want. I’m thankful that Millie got baptized and that I got to talk to her on the phone. I’m thankful for texts. I’m thankful that Madeline is my friend. I’m thankful for naps. I’m thankful for Kenz & Kelsie. I’m thankful for Kelsie’s friends cause they’re all so nice! I’m thankful that Nate & I snapchatted today. I’m thankful for free food. I’m thankful for all the things I learned from being in seminary council. I’m thankful for the friendship I had with Carlos & Jake in high school. I miss them. I’m thankful for my singing voice. I’m thankful that Kenz & I hung out at Kelsie’s apartment tonight.

Day 15. I’m thankful for Kelsie. I’m thankful for blueberry oatmeal. I’m thankful for Priesthood leaders. I’m thankful for all the seminary teachers I had in high school. I’m thankful that Kels & I talked for three hours today. I’m thankful that I can be artistic sometimes. I’m thankful for Josh and his cute snapchat videos. I’m thankful that Randy invited me to his ballroom concert. I’m thankful that I FaceTimed my family today. I’m thankful for Aaron and our friendship. No matter what happens, it’s always there. I’m thankful for electricity and light bulbs. I’m thankful that Sundays are so laid back.

Day 16. I’m thankful that Sadie works at the MTC and saw Fin this morning! I’m thankful for Elder Johansen’s emails. I’m thankful for snowfall, it’s so peaceful and pretty. I’m thankful for Cameron’s testimony. I’m thankful for beanies. I’m thankful for Aneisa and trips to Walmart. I’m thankful for Christmas music. I’m thankful for how similar Madeline & I are. I’m thankful that Aaron calls me just to tell me random things. I’m thankful that postal service exists. I’m thankful that I can be silly with Aneisa & Kenz. I’m thankful for cute pictures. I’m thankful for honey chicken. I’m thankful for the musical Wicked. I’m thankful for our family home evening group. I’m thankful that Bailee FaceTimed me tonight. I’m thankful that she met Tom. I’m thankful that Connor & Jill both texted me today. I’m thankful that today I felt really happy. Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

Day 17. I’m thankful for hot chocolate. I’m thankful for Aneisa’s hugs. I’m thankful for my cute sister Jill. I’m thankful that even though Kelsie was born three months early, twenty years later she’s as fit and perfect as can be. I’m thankful for Taylor and the other girls that helped me ace my sight singing test. I’m thankful for Dr. Huff. I’m thankful for cute Josh. I’m thankful that we cleaned our apartment today. I’m thankful that Kelsie & her friends are cool with me hanging out with them. I’m thankful that Mom texts me back super fast usually. I’m thankful for Kate & Cory. I’m thankful for peanut butter toast. I’m thankful that Aaron values my opinion and tells me things. I’m thankful for mine & Aneisa’s talks. I’m thankful for Connor every day and I miss him.

Day 18. I’m thankful for early, productive mornings. I’m thankful for Kenz & Aneisa. I’m thankful that my family goes on trips to see more family; otherwise, what’s the point? I’m thankful that we got out of biology early. I’m thankful that Aneisa made me breakfast. I’m thankful that Dr. LeBaron is my music theory teacher. I’m thankful for the girls I sit by in choir. I’m thankful that Josh got my package!! I’m thankful when our apartment is quiet. I’m thankful for Madeline and our jokes. I’m thankful when hard things are over. I’m thankful for food. I’m thankful for my bed.

Day 19. I’m thankful for Madison from my art class. I’m thankful for my institute class. I’m thankful for good talks. I’m thankful for my mom and that I know she’ll always answer the phone when I call. I’m thankful for my roommates and that they get excited for me. I’m thankful for Kelsie and that I can trust her. I’m thankful for post offices. I’m thankful for inside jokes. I’m thankful for Madeline. She is so cool. I’m thankful for the choir friends I made today. I’m thankful for the awesome music that was sung and the good feeling I felt while singing. I’m thankful for Severus Snape. I’m thankful for the band kids that know my name. I’m thankful that Kels & Elysa & Kenz & Aneisa came to my concert. I’m thankful for banana shakes. I’m thankful for Josh’s snapchat today!! I’m thankful that I have such hardworking friends like Nate and I’m thankful that he won Sterling Scholar for World Language (Congrats!!). I’m thankful for Kelsie’s apartment and her friends. I’m thankful for movie nights. I’m thankful that I can totally be myself around Kenz & Aneisa, and even when they’re in my room till 3 in the morning, I love them! Processed with VSCOcam with c1 preset

Day 20. I’m thankful for my vsco account (haha). I’m thankful for clouds and mountains. I’m thankful for hot chocolate. I’m thankful for boy talks with Kenz & Aneisa. I’m thankful that I didn’t have music theory today. I’m thankful that Justin laughs at my jokes. I’m thankful that Aneisa curled my hair for me. I’m thankful for Mary and when she says she’s excited for me. I’m thankful for deep talks. I’m thankful that my date with Skylar was fun! I’m thankful for Grandma Jane. I’m thankful for shooting stars. I’m thankful for my sister’s comfy shoulder. I’m thankful for my crazy roommates and for laughing super hard.

Day 21. I’m thankful for cute dreams. I’m thankful for hot showers. I’m thankful for Kelsie’s apartment. I’m thankful that I did laundry this morning. I’m thankful for FaceTime. I’m thankful for mac’n cheese. I’m thankful for naps. I’m thankful that my family got to come to Ephraim to see Kelsie’s choir concert. I’m thankful that Con & I could talk and I could show him faces to the stories I tell him. I’m thankful for Jill and her cute style. I’m thankful for Weston cause he’s hilarious. I’m thankful for hamburgers. I’m thankful for talks with my family. I’m thankful for any time I get to be with them. I’m thankful for my dad’s reading voice. I’m thankful for hugs. I’m thankful that it’s only goodbye until Tuesday. I’m thankful for Mary & Talon. I’m thankful for Kels and movie nights. I’m thankful for Leedan & Kyle. I’m thankful for donuts. Processed with VSCOcam with hb2 preset

Day 22. I’m thankful for Josh on his BIRTHDAY!! I’m thankful that he is alive and a part of my life. I’m thankful for his positivity but also his honesty. I’m thankful that Kels drove me to church today. I’m thankful for Kyle. I’m thankful for the tenor line in hymns. I’m thankful for the sacrament. I’m thankful for fabulous male singers. I’m thankful for Kelsie & Weston. I’m thankful that he said our family was perfect and good-looking (hehe). I’m thankful that Randy sent me a video of Josh opening the package I sent him. I’m thankful that my roommates & I had a fancy dinner together tonight. I’m thankful for books & blankets. I’m thankful for Nate’s snapchat that made me laugh super hard! I’m thankful that Kelsie invited me over to play games and I’m thankful that I went. I’m thankful for fun games and people that get wayyy into them. I’m thankful for cheesecake.

Day 23. I’m thankful for my bed. I’m thankful for my voice teacher Susan. I’m thankful that Kels is going on a date tonight. I’m thankful for my nice roommates. I’m thankful for long naps… and being able to stay in bed when I don’t feel good. I’m thankful that Kenz made me soup and Elysa bought me soda. I’m thankful for having time to read. I’m thankful that Kels borrows my clothes for her dates. I’m thankful that she stayed at my house after her date was over. I’m thankful for Miranda Sings (hahaha) and that Weston came over again after he got our snapchats. I’m thankful for people I can be silly around. I’m thankful for the Sprite Mary bought me and the cute note she wrote me. I’m thankful for when I get to be the go-to girl. I’m thankful for my Momma & Papa Bear group chat with my parents.

Day 24. I’m thankful for early mornings when I’m productive and get stuff done before my first class.  I’m thankful for mascara. I’m thankful that I’m going home today. I’m thankful when I don’t have stomach aches. I’m thankful that the music that played in my art class today was basically all of Connor’s favorite songs. I’m thankful for Brother Bingham because he is such an amazing teacher. I’m thankful for my testimony, even when it isn’t very strong. I’m thankful that I know what this gospel is. I’m thankful for Josh, always always. I’m thankful that my piano piece went well. I’m thankful for Dr. Huff. I’m thankful that I packed early so we would leave right away when I was done with classes. I’m thankful that Kels drives the speed limit. I’m thankful for sunsets. I’m thankful that we got HOME. I’m thankful for Connor’s long hugs. I’m thankful for warm dinner. I’m thankful for Roxberry & Aaron! I’m thankful for Jill. I’m thankful for all those times I’d sit on my parents bed and talk to them forever and I’m thankful I can still do that.

Day 25. I’m thankful that I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t stop smiling cause I was HOME. I’m thankful for this cute wall I have in my room with all my high school memories. I’m thankful that my mom let me sleep in. I’m thankful for the piano. I’m thankful that I met Aaron & Randy when I did. I’m thankful for yellow curry. I’m thankful for Heidi. I’m thankful that she asked me to help her with her cute family photos. I’m thankful that I saw Bailee today. I’m thankful for hugs. I’m thankful for my family. I’m thankful for my mom and that she understands me. I’m thankful that my siblings make me so happy. I’m thankful that today has been tear-free. I’m thankful for Adele’s song Hello (cause who isn’t?). I’m thankful that Aneisa sent me a snapchat hug. I’m thankful that Jill is my singing partner. I’m thankful that Con & I got the back seat. I’m thankful for Grace & Therron’s house.

Day 26. I’m thankful for hot chocolate. I’m thankful for curling irons. I’m thankful for Grace. I’m thankful for Therron’s perfect striped shirt (haha!). I’m thankful that Connor takes pictures with me. I’m thankful for Lewiston. I’m thankful that Graham and everyone else that made Thanksgiving dinner. I’m thankful for prayers. I’m thankful for talks with Mom. I’m thankful that Dad is good at popping my back. I’m thankful that Fin is at the MTC right now. I’m thankful for Zack and his laugh. I’m thankful for my aunts and uncles. I’m thankful for my Harrop family, too (I’m thankful I get to see them next month!). I’m thankful that my family puts up with my picture-taking obsession. I’m thankful for my Grandpa. I’m thankful for blueberry pie. I’m thankful for Kade & Isaac and computer games. I’m thankful for Thanksgiving!nov26

Day 27. I’m thankful for sleeping in. I’m thankful for mornings in Lewiston. I’m thankful for pumpkin pancakes. I’m thankful for homemade applesauce. I’m thankful for my little cousins. I’m thankful for leftovers. I’m thankful for my pillow. I’m thankful when car rides end. I’m thankful for my family. I’m thankful for my mom & dad. I’m thankful that Nate came over. I’m thankful that he is and always has been such a good friend to me. I’m thankful for hugs.

Day 28. I’m thankful for orange cuties. I’m thankful that I got to Salt Lake safely with all the ice & snow. I’m thankful for the temple. I’m thankful for the feeling of peace. I’m thankful for my Heavenly Father. I’m thankful that I can pray to Him. I’m thankful for my dad’s Saturday Breaksfasts. I’m thankful that I got to go out to lunch with Elysa & Bay. I’m thankful for Sammie and her cute love story and that she’s getting married! I’m thankful that the four of us girls got to sit and chat today about all the good times. I’m thankful for laughter. I’m thankful for naps. I’m thankful for soup. I’m thankful for movie theaters and popcorn. I’m thankful for my siblings. I’m thankful that we put up our Christmas tree tonight. I’m thankful for Josh’s snapchats and that he said goodnight Abbs. I’m thankful that he comes home in less than 19 days!! I’m thankful that Con & Jill & I are sleeping under the tree tonight.Processed with VSCOcam with a5 preset

Day 29. I’m thankful for my home ward. I’m thankful for Sunday School. I’m thankful for savings. I’m thankful for my dad and his councilors. I’m thankful that I was on seminary council. I’m thankful for cuddles with Connor (shhh.. hehe). I’m thankful for food. I’m thankful that my mom is so generous. I’m thankful for my dad. I’m thankful for He Is We’s song All About Us. I’m thankful for Jill and her cute hair-dos. I’m thankful that my mom cooks warm meals every day and works so hard. I’m thankful for Kelsie & Kate. I’m thankful for snapchat singing battles with Leedan & Tyler. I’m thankful that we got to Ephraim safely. I’m thankful for Kelsie’s apartment. I’m thankful that Ben always compliments my singing whenever I talk to him. I’m thankful for peanut butter toast.

Day 30. I’m thankful for blankets. I’m thankful that Taylor is doing well in Samoa. I’m thankful for Cameron’s emails. I’m thankful for Aneisa. I’m thankful for mornings. I’m thankful for my music classes. I’m thankful for movies. I’m thankful for quesadillas. I’m thankful for my roommates. I’m thankful that we went to family home evening. I’m thankful for Bailee. I’m thankful for brownie batter. I’m thankful for FaceTime. I’m thankful for books and for reading out loud. I’m thankful for Elysa, one of my best friends. I’m thankful that David Archuleta is coming out with a new Christmas song. I’m thankful I spent my time in November being thankful! I’m thankful for the gospel and I’m thankful for my family.

things I miss

-Mom’s chocolate stash
-staying up late with Connor
-singing with Jill (this is a HUGE one recently)
-smoothies
-Aaron
-working with Aaron
-working with Tanner
-Nate: our talks and jam sessions
-Connor
-chocolate
-Tiffany
-Dad making breakfast on Saturdays
-driving my own car
-a warm cooked meal at every dinner (thanks Mom)
-late nights talking with Mom & Dad on their bed
-chats with Ash during her sister’s piano lessons
-everything that’s chocolate
-laughing with Connor & Savannah
-Brother Lewis
-Momma
-hanging out with Josh & Cam
-the trees in Overlake
-my Primary class
-The Golden Trio
-going to bed before midnight

Good Things #31 (cause things are that good)

1. Nate (& his family) came and visited super quick before we left for Colorado, which changed my whole attitude about the day cause I had a sad morning. The Johansens always make me happy. 

2. Road trips = napping. Yes. 

3. Went to the Denver Temple this morning. Going to the temple always makes me feel so good. 

 

4. We spent the afternoon looking through Grandma’s trunk–all of her keepsakes from childhood and on. Looking at pictures and listening to stories was the greatest. 

5. My dad is so funny and I love him and wish he was with us. 

6. Nature is great, isn’t it? Mas skipped his rock five times and he’s eight years old, I only got two today. 

7. The highlight of my day was getting to see Josh. I love him!! He’s the cutest ever and talking to him is just like we always do and I miss high school for the sole purpose of seeing Josh every day. But boy am I glad I saw him tonight.  


8. I love singing. There’s more to it than you’d think, but I like it a lot.

9. Jill was sharing stories with me tonight and it made me so grateful for her. She’s adorable. 

10. Connor & I laugh so much when we’re together. He’s my favorite.  

 

Good Things #30

1. In just a few hours I’ll be home with my family. :) :) :) I love them and miss them always. 

2. Last night the choir concert went so so well! It was so fun performing! Definitely a rush like no other. 

3. General Conference weekend was awesome, as always.

4. I have a heart wall in my Ephraim bedroom!

5. On Saturday I spent the whole day cleaning my apartment (what to do when you’re home alone) and it looks so so so good and I feel so much better being in a clean house!

6. I got a 96 on my Music Theory midterm. YES. 

7. I saw David Archuleta with Randy last Thursday! Best. Concert. Ever.  

8. People at Snow are so kind. I love everyone I meet!

9. My roommates are amazing. 

10. Phone calls with Aaron are so fun and I love that he tries to keep in touch. He’s the greatest friend, even from miles away!