Someday…

My dad once told me that when it comes to finding someone to marry (which is quite a while from now), I don’t need to look for that special person. My dad told me that they will find me. He said that I should work now on being the kind of person I would want to marry… My dad said it in a way that made more sense, so sorry if it doesn’t right now. Basically he said to be the best person I could be, and not worry about finding someone that I will trust and love and want to be with forever, because if I’m doing my part, that man will come into my life, and everything will fall into place.

Losing Sleep

Take me back to the times we spent out on the porch

We’d sit on the rocking chairs like many times before

Talking ’bout fishing and roller coaster rides

And when you had to leave you’d ask for a hug goodbye.

Now there we are underneath the moon and stars

Looking up at the sky — just you and I

Thinking to ourselves of how we could be together

Feeling almost as if the night would last forever…

To: Kat

Dear Kat,

It wasn’t your fault. Everyone makes their own choices. As much as I sometimes wish, we can’t make decisions for other people. When people you love and care so much about do something you don’t agree with, it’s really hard to be okay with it. And I’m not saying that what your friend did wasn’t wrong, it is. It’s really serious. What I want to say is that none of that was your fault. Being a good friend is great, but unfortunately being a good friend doesn’t mean that person will always stay by your side, or do what’s right. Cause like I said, it was her choice… It wasn’t your fault.

My dad said that there are so many times he’s wished people in his life didn’t make certain decisions, but really there’s nothing he can do about it. He said everyone always looks back to see what they could have done to maybe prevent those things a person close to them does… Sometimes that is a good thing to think about in trying to better yourself, but it is also a very bad thing that can destroy you. Dwelling on what you could have or should have done… Kat, I don’t think you should beat yourself up too much about this… what’s done is done.

I’m so sorry that you lost your best friend… I really am. You’ve been through so much. You are so strong. I am so proud of who you are right now. You are one of my best friends, and I love you so much. And about the other friend you’re worried about right now… Just be a good friend to her. Do your best to be your best. Let her know that you love her… And hopefully she’ll come around.

Stay beautiful.

Love, Me

Dream on.

I’m a daydreamer. I always think of different scenarios that could happen to me and other people. All the time. I’m always thinking of how things could be. And even though it’s not real, and I know it would never happen, I still get my hopes up. I wish so badly that my thoughts could actually become reality. That would just be so fantastic.

Family is great.

I’m really thankful for my family. We’re all close, even if we’re far away… If that makes sense.

My uncle called me today. And I just feel like I should say how grateful I am for him. He’s awesome. I’m so thankful that I have him in my life. To be able to depend on family members like that, to be able to call them whenever to just talk about things, is fantastic. I was overwhelmed with gratitude. I love my family.

To a friend…

B.

I am so sorry about everything you’re going through. Being a teenager is tough enough, and then being forced into all those things that you don’t want to do… I can see how overwhelming that would be. I really am sorry. I’m sorry that I’m not that much comfort, and that the other night I didn’t know what to say to make you feel better. Sorry just doesn’t cut it. But it hurts me to see you hurt. I don’t want any of my friends to feel like that… I guess I’m writing this letter to tell you that I am here. I know that I may not be the person you’d want to confide in and tell everything to, but I am here if you want that person to be me. I’m willing to help, and really, if you need anything, I will be there. Even if it’s as simple as a plate of cookies, or even just a hug. To me you are one of my best friends, and I hope that feeling is mutual between us. I love you so much. I don’t want you to be sad, I want you to be happy! So, please… if there is anything I can do…

Yeah, I do realize that I’m kind of crazy and probably not the best at giving advice. I’m not perfect. And like you said the other night, I probably won’t understand a lot of what’s going on with you and your mom. Honestly, all I’m good for as an imperfect human being is a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen, and that’s for any time you need that. But there is someone who understands everything. Have you talked to Him? He knows exactly what you’re going through, because He’s been through it all. John 16:33 says, “In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” Have you ever thought about what that means? I think it means that yeah, life is gonna stink sometimes and you’ll go through hard times, but… compared to what Christ has gone through, it’s so little. What’s so reassuring is that He cares about everything we go through, no matter how small of a task it is. So don’t worry, because if you let Him, He will be with you every step of the way. And you will be able to get through anything. Nothing is impossible with the Lord by your side. I don’t even know how hard this is that you’re going through, but He does. He understands. And He wants to help you, just like I do.

You are beautiful and amazing and talented in so many ways. I’m so grateful that you are my friend. You are such a strength to me, and you have no idea how much you’ve done for this these past few months. Maybe this letter helped you, maybe not. If anything I hope it is a call to action to turn to your Savior. He loves you… And please, please remember that I am always here for you. Just a phone-call, a text, or a couple blocks away.

I love you so much.

Love,

Me

Good Things #8

Today hasn’t been the best. But I just want to prove to myself that there is still good in every day. So here goes…

1. Classes were shorter today at school because of the pep assembly.

2. My sister’s birthday is in three days… And I picked out the best present ever for her.

3. I think I’m really funny when I make weird noises.

4. Church basketball is fun to watch. I really like working the scoreboard.

5. I’m in love with my dad’s new iPad mini.

6. I have almost mastered singing and playing Skinny Love on the piano.

7. He smiled at me today…

8. I’ve missed chocolate… Today I finally had some. It’s basically the best thing in the world.

9. Snow is so pretty.

10. I like to wear scarfs. They make me feel cute.

Who am I to judge?

Why would you want to point out others’ faults, knowing you have so many as well? Judging others is hypocritical. But in some way, I think everyone is or has been a hypocrite. But we shouldn’t be mad at each other for that. Hating someone because they’re a hypocrite doesn’t make you the perfect one. In fact, it doesn’t make you perfect at all. We all have problems. And no one wants to be put down, so why do we put down others, whether they know about it or not? God loves everyone. He is merciful and kind. No matter what sins we do He will always take us back. He won’t say bitterly, “You said you’d never do that,” and then turn away… He always wants us back.

I need to have this perspective. I want to be loving and kind, and refrain from judgment. Everyone is different, and everyone sins differently. I see people all the time that make choices I don’t approve of, but who am I to judge? It’s not my life, it’s theirs. It’s their choice. But, like Christ, I should still love everyone, just as He does… Every person on this earth is a beautiful Child of God. Why do I forget that so often? We’re all here for the same reason, and we all struggle. Why not help instead of pushing each other away..?

I’m not even close to perfect and I need to work on this. But please take this into heart and think about it…