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“I can’t set my hopes too high, cause every hello ends with a goodbye.”

Yeah… that about sums it up.

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Midnight driving.

It was well past 11:30… It was a fun day, but a long day. I’d just dropped off my friends so it was just me alone in the car. I decided to take a little detour to get home. Not anywhere specific… Just anywhere. I needed some alone time. I needed to think.

I turned up the radio and sang along as I drove through the dark night. Other cars were scarce, even in town, and I really felt like it was just me and the road. I was alone, but that was okay. My favorite songs were playing and my thoughts were running wild. They kept going back to the same things… But as I drove on I came to many conclusions as to help the pathetic situation I find myself in and thinking about. See, the things I think about don’t even matter…

Anyway. I sang along until I couldn’t anymore. I drove for quite a while. Driving is amazing. Especially when you’re alone. I like the feeling of independence I get and being able to drive wherever I want and sing as loud as I want. Being alone… It’s great every now and then.

“Send out the alarms I’m all alone… wrap me in your arms and take me home… take me home, to your arms.” (Take Me Home by Us)

I never know what to write on my blog… Moral of this story? I like driving and I think too much. But, you already knew that.

Eh…

Sometimes it’s good to take a step back and look at the world with a bigger perspective.

… But right now all I want to do is shut out the world and sit in my room and read.

I’m tired.

Fressshh

It’s a new year… Yay! I decided this year that I don’t like new year’s resolutions… cause I never do them… and then I end up finding the goals I had for the year before and just realize how bad I am at keeping goals and such. But! Whether I like it or not, there are some things I need to be doing right now… and it just happens to be the beginning of the year so it may look like I’m making new year’s resolutions, but I’m not. ;) A friend of mine said that the beginning of the year shouldn’t be when you decide to change or make new goals to have a better life… you can do that any time, any day. Because of Christ, we can start fresh every single morning if we need to, it doesn’t have to be only on the first of January every year.

So here I am, trying to start fresh on January 5th. It’s gonna take some work… but my YW leader said sometimes it helps to publicize your goals, then you feel like people are watching you to see if you actually do it…

First: I am going to read the Book of Mormon again this year. Cover to cover. I’ve done it before… I want to do it again though. I need the scriptures in my life more than ever, and what better scriptures to read than the Book of Mormon? I want to read every day. Starting today.

Second: I need to be more organized with the money I’m earning from work. I need to continue putting half of what I earn in savings. I need to continue paying my tithing. I need to pay my mom back for all the things she paid for this school year before I had a job… haha. I need to rely more on myself financially. I need to buy a checkbook. And I need to save up for important things that are to come!!

Third: I want to find good. Life gets overwhelming… And the last couple months I’ve learned that if I just take the time to notice the good things I will be a lot happier. I want to find something good in every single day and put it in my jar. I want to write more meaningful things in my journal that could possibly later benefit me. My ultimate goal is to be able to see God’s hand in my life. I want my focus to be on Him. I think starting by looking for good things will help me get part of the way there.

I think three is good enough for now. I always have a list in my head of everything I must do to become the best possible Abbey Morrison there can be… And if you’re anything like me, that list gets longer and longer, day after day, as I am aware of my weaknesses and all of my mistakes. I’m impatient and I want to be better now, but I know it’s gonna take some time. Step by step, I can become closer to my Heavenly Father. There are some things in life we just have to do whether we like to or not, like work… but there is a reward in working hard and earning money (and in paying tithing!). There are lessons learned in everything we do, and if we let Him, God will be there all of the way with us. I want that. And I hope that by reading the Book of Mormon and searching for good I can find that light and maybe even be a light to others. Step by step… I hope I can get there and come out of it with more love and more knowledge of what really matters…

Good Things #18

1. I love Colorado.

2. My cousins are the cutest EVER.

3. I am so thankful for comfy beds.

4. I love naps.

5. My brother has become one of my best friends over the past couple months.

6. Texting is good sometimes.

7. Friends that come and talk to me while I’m working are the coolest.

8. I love Elysa and I’m so glad that I can tell her anything. I’ve kept that stuff in for months…

9. Food is so great.

10. Sitting around with my family just talking and stuff… those are some of the best moments.