1:07 AM (which is early for me)

Distance has taught me a few things:

-how to appreciate the people I really care about

-to always value hugs

-who’s really there for me (even when we’re miles apart) and who really isn’t

-who I wanna be there for

-what my priorities are


Update (10 Photos Worth) #3

Obviously I’m really creative cause my last three blog posts have just been pictures and explanations of them… I don’t have much time for anything else. But.. enjoy!

1. This photo is too cute… haha! This is Cody, Kenz, Aneisa, me, & Regis before the football game messing around with Elysa’s camera. Notice how someone decorated our hallway? It’s awesome! 0926ckaarSQ

2. Cody is a cool kid. Elysa & I respect him so much! He’s so funny and is so nice to everyone and we love it. Elysa & I actually went with Cody to his house in Nephi on Sunday and it was really cool! His family is super nice and way good at cooking. ;) It was nice having a change of scenery from Ephraim but staying with the same people… ya know? 0922codyeaSQ

3. Aneisa is AWESOME. She loves cute photos and she loves me too so it’s a win-win. ;) This picture is from our drive up the canyon with Cody & Regis.0926aneisaabbs

4. Me & Kels before the homecoming dance. (Did I mention this week was homecoming week?) She was so so excited for her date and it was so cute! Aneisa lent me her fabulous dress cause Kelsie & Elysa were borrowing mine. I love my sister, she’s got the greatest smile!0926seesters5. We went on a Frazil Run (drove all the way to Manti) at like 11 at night. It was super fun and reminded me a lot of home! I love frazils. :) Being able to start the tradition down here with my new friends is super exciting. New place, new memories. But still a bit of home.0924frazilrunSQ6. FAM. Yes, we purposely wore matching shirts for this photo. And isn’t it great? The football game was SO HOT though. I wasn’t feeling as cute as I did in this picture by that point in the day. ;) 0926fam7. Up in the canyon again. Regis wanted to take some “date” photos. About 50 takes later and this is what we got! hahaPicMonkey Collage8. On Sunday, Josh facetimed me!! My family that lives in Colorado went to visit him (Grandma and Allie’s family–that’s actually Tanner standing behind Josh in the screenshot). They were so excited! haha But I mostly talked Josh and I loved that. Even if things were different and he was still at BYU, I like to think that I would call him up or text him every now and then to tell him about my life, just like I did in high school. He’s such a great friend and I’m so so grateful for his positivity and kindness. He’s the best.0927facetimewithjosh9. The homecoming dance was CRAZY. It played upbeat music the entire time and so for the whole dance we were bouncing and going nuts! It was SO HOT and we were all so sweaty but hey it was a good time! I’m glad I got to go with all of these kids. Love love love my “fam”. :)0926homecomingSQ10. Sunday Drive with Regis, and turns out I knew where this lake was all along, I’d just forgotten… hahaha And the whole reason we kept going up the canyon this week was to find it! That was a funny moment when we figured out that I actually knew this lake existed. We skipped rocks and talked about our lives… Regis’ record was nine skips, mine was six (which I was SO excited about). Grateful that he’s my new friend!0927foundthelake

Update (10 Photos Worth) #2

1. We LOVE our roommates!!! Kenzie just got her mission call to France! We are so proud and so excited for her!

2. My mom and dad are my heroes. Dad makes me laugh and Mom gives the BEST advice in the world. I love them so much. Being away makes me appreciate them even more. It made my heart hurt a little bit when Dad stood in the middle of the road and waved goodbye until he couldn’t see us anymore when Kels & I were leaving Lewiston on Labor Day to go back to school. I really have the best parents.0907myparents

3. Connor is and always will be the most important boy in my life. The best thing about it is that I’ve got him forever no matter what. And I am SO grateful for that!! I love him and miss him more than anything.0907brotherSQ

4. Josh asked me to come visit him and that was truly a blessing to be able to get to see him. I brought him this ring that he made me back in sophomore year that I kept forever. But yeah so when I visited I just told him all about college and it was so fun to chat and just be myself and be able to talk to someone without them getting mad or interjecting… haha Josh is a great friend… 0906joshua

5. Meet our friend Cody… he’s had staples in his head and has fractured his hip all in two weeks and still keeps us laughing. What a champ. haha!FullSizeRender

6. Forever and ever grateful for my very best friend Elysa. We are super cute so that just adds to the amount of love I have for us. 0915provo

7. This picture is from my third visit with Josh, the night before he went to Colorado actually. It was super awesome getting to see him again and he was so upbeat and positive I couldn’t help but feel it too! I love this kid so so much. He has helped me in so many ways, especially during our senior year. He’s amazing.0915joshandmeSQ

8. What do you do when you don’t have plans? Steal Cody’s hat and take photos by the gravitee wall that’s what. hahaha These girls are so much fun. :)IMG_5531

9. This is my FAM. We really call each other that… haha It’s so fun having them around to hang out with! From left to right: Regis, Kenz, me, Aneisa, Elysa, and Cody. I love love these friends! Hopefully they stick around a while.IMG_5551

10. Forever my favorite girls. We’ve lived together for a month and we know basically everything about each other already and I absolutely love it. :) FullSizeRender_1

Matthew 11:28

I said the other night that God likes to mess with us and throw us curve balls. Well after thinking more about that, I think that what I said is wrong. God should never be and never has been our enemy! These bad things that happen to us are not because of God, it’s only because we live in a fallen world. Heavenly Father didn’t plan for us to be struggling with certain things, He didn’t plan for Kelsey to have to postpone her mission, He didn’t plan for Josh to lose all feeling below his chest and be told that he might not walk again, He didn’t plan for my uncle to commit suicide. He doesn’t plan that. It’s like if He stopped people from making bad decisions; He can’t stop bad things from happening. So it’s His plan to BE THERE. He’s there when the bad things happen. He’s there to lift and to heal and to comfort and to help because He is OUR GOD. Our God wouldn’t send us these horrible trials on purpose because He does love us and want the best for us. Do our parents ever purposely make us go through really hard things? No. The hard things come first, and the people around us help us to cope, and they always want the BEST for us. Of course our trials can make us stronger, but no one plans for bad things to happen. God loves us and doesn’t want us to suffer, but He knows that pain and sorrow in this life is inevitable and that is why He sent His Son to this earth so that we can feel comfort and know that WE ARE NOT ALONE. God is not the cause of our trials, but rather the remedy of them. If we realize that, we’ll be a lot better off. I’ve found myself blaming God and being mad at Him when really I should be turning to Him and asking Him for comfort when I’m feeling sad instead of pushing Him away out of frustration. I’ve been so wrong. Heavenly Father loves us and wants us to be happy! Life is hard, and God wants to be there every step of the way. “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

Update (10 Photos Worth)

An update is definitely needed. I have relocated to the lovely city (town?) of Ephraim, Utah. And I have been an official college student for about a week now? Kinda weird… This whole summer has led up to this… And now here I am. 145 miles away from home at Snow College.

1. Nate came the morning I left to give me a letter and to say bye. No matter what happens in my life, I will ALWAYS be grateful for and remember fondly the Johansen family. Nate is one of the best kids I know and I am so so glad he is a part of my life.0815abbsnateSQ

2. My family is the best part of me. Their goodbye was the hardest. I sure do love them forever and forever. I LOVE technology and the fact that Mom has already had to help me with Theory homework… I’m so blessed and even being gone for only a week has given me a better appreciation for my family and all they do for me. Can’t wait for Labor Day Weekend.0815lovemyfamSQ 3. Connor became one of my best friends senior year. I now understand Savannah’s frustration when she’d tell me he was really bad at texting back… he really is. I miss being able to talk to him whenever I wanted to. The awesome thing is that no matter what happens, no matter what friends come and go, I’ve got him forever. 0815sunshine 4. FaceTime is so fun and talking to Randy last Sunday made me SO HAPPY! Miss him.0816facetimerandy5. Fin stopped by for a visit on Monday night. We went to dinner and then got some frozen yogurt and it was such a good night. I love family and I love Fin and I’m so so glad he decided to come down. :)
0817finfinfin 6. Shoutout to us for both looking fabulous on our first day of school. ;) I really really wanted the typical First Day of School Picture to send to our moms. We were soooo excited at how much our social media sites liked this picture. haha 0819firstdayofschoolSQ 7. The movie we were watching on Friday got a little boring, so I decided to make us a doormat out of chalk…0821mydoormat8. … and then this guy told me if I wanted to I could make him a doormat too… so of course I told all of my roommates and at 2 in the morning we decided to leave this in front of his door. 0821doormat

9. One of the most exciting things ever was having these guys come down. I don’t know how thrilled they were to be at our apartment when they still had a long drive home, but it made me so happy! I’m super excited for them to start their school year and can’t wait to hear all about it. :)0821stansburyBOYS 10. I’m really really really glad that Kels is here at college with me. I’m hoping going to the temple becomes a weekly thing, and I’m looking forward to becoming better friends with my sissy.0822mantitempleSQ

Good Things #29

1. My sleeping habits still stink, but at least I don’t have the urge to fall asleep during the day anymore…

2. I love that no matter how much time Elysa & I spend apart, it’s like we were never separated when we get back together.

3. On Monday my very first customer gave me a five dollar tip.

4. Randy can use his phone in Nauvoo… So instant updates!

5. Aaron is one of the most thoughtful friends I’ve ever had and I like phone calls with him.

6. I will be done working at Roxberry in 20 days!!!

7. I’m going to Idaho in 22 days!

8. Nate is one of my besties. And I love that!

9. My new Spotify playlist is Nostalgia Central (haha that’s not really its name). But I like thinking back on things from wayyy far back, that way I don’t have to dwell on high school memories right now.

10. I usually like Grace, and she usually likes me. It works for us.

11. Connor gets home from High Adventure today!! I’ve missed him. And last night Jill & I blew up over 130 balloons to decorate his room… You could say we’re a bit excited. :)

12. Medicine is the worst, but not feeling the worst is worth it.

13. Yesterday I donated blood… Go me!

14. I love my rings. They are so so cute…

15. I really really enjoy writing letters.

16. I’ve gone to the temple twice in two weeks, hopefully I can keep it up… it makes me feel real good.

17. Shopping for my dorm room is kinda fun… and I have a supa cute bedspread!

18. Working in the morning is so chill… and horribly boring. But at least I get to catch up on journaling and stuff!

19. I love love love my family.

20. I finished an original song recently… GO ME :)

July 4th

You know those days that are just so perfect you wish you could freeze every moment from them to keep forever? 

I’m a picture girl. I like to have pictures of everything, proof of what I do I guess. 

But I didn’t get a single picture today. 

It was one of the best days I’ve had this summer and I didn’t get a single picture. 

It’s a good thing I’ll always remember how much I love early mornings and simple conversations, snow cones and family, laughing and the feeling of utmost admiration, air conditioning and the small stress of driving on dirt roads, being needed and being valued and being appreciated, compliments and hugs, and the aura of adventure: the I’ve-never-done-this-before-but-I-think-I-love-it kind of feeling. 

I’ll never forget this July 4th. 

same stars

And I can’t stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now
Take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You’ll never be alone 
You’ll never be alone
When you miss me close your eyes
I may be far but never gone
When you fall asleep tonight just remember that we lay under the same stars